I haven't been using my blog much. I've had conflicting feelings about it. I've had conversations with some great ladies about the blogging/FB/twitter, etc. world. I've come to the conclusion that the world of internet is sort of a deception. I mean, we see our dear friends only posting the most perfect pictures, and blogging about the sweet, tender things in their lives. (which I am not knocking!) But, it can start to give the appearance that they or their families are perfect. And then you start to feel down about yourself/family. Why? Because you DO have problems and you feel like some kind of failure or something. You know that feeling...it comes when you start scrolling down the page of the most recent Pinterest pins and you say to yourself how lousy you are because you didn't sew a vintage hat for your kid's teachers. Yeah, that feeling.
So, I've tried to avoid being that kind of person. I don't want to think that others are perfect, and I really don't want others to think that way about us. But, I've also noticed that people can use these websites to bully and be mean. I just read an article about it today in the August Ensign.
A few months ago I posted about a lady (a complete stranger) and my very upset feelings about her. I used this blog to vent...I mean no one reads it anyway. Yes, it's true, she was not very nice. But, I found myself asking today if I was any better of a person by ranting on my blog? Yes, I came up with the conclusion that if I had to ask myself that question, I already knew the answer. I would be heart broken if I ever found out that someone did that to me. As I'm sure she would feel if she ever came across my post. We're human, we make mistakes. So, I'm chalking it up to that. Forgiving and forgetting. And I have deleted my post, and now apologize for subjecting her to such treatment and to you for making it so public.
To whomever reads this...all my love.
